recovery quotes 2/21/2011

You don’t have to do anything in this program. You can just do it when you come back…

I fantasized about winning an Oscar since I was 5. I deferred my need for love. I thought, "In the future I will be loved by so many people that I don’t even have to interact with."

12 year b-day: I’m grateful for the life I have today. Glad I didn’t plan it. I would have messed it up.

I used to be all about the drug culture. It took me to this lonely and terrifying place I couldn’t stand. Now it’s totally all about AA. I have a family, wife, and kid, and it’s all because of AA.

Be there for somebody! Be there for yourself! It will all come back.

Everything keeps changing. It freaks me out and I wanna die – but I haven’t done it and it always gets better.

I decided to get a grip on my depression and began to write down my feeling state every 3 hours – giving it a number from 1 to 10: 1 for great, to 5 for neutral, to 10 for unbearable. I did this for 2 weeks. I thought it was bad a lot of the time – but when I looked it up, I saw that it had been really bad only once, and fairly good several times. My depression got better after that.

Make it to bed sober and see what happens…

You can do sex, food, gambling or other satellite addictions. Just do it quietly! Don’t tell anyone here or they’ll tell you there is a solution.

If you’re like me and feel uncomfortable in any social situation, you can try to avoid meetings with coffee breaks, or you could turn to the person next to you and ask, “How did you get sober?” They’ll talk for the entire break.

It goes back and forth in 5 Minute intervals from “I’m fabulous” to “I wanna die.”

I was on a Valium diet to avoid alcohol calories.

I drank in the evening. A sunny morning meant to me, “Fuck! 10 more hours to kill.”

I usually mocked everything, ‘cause I was deeply embarrassed about my needs.

When I got here I didn’t dare to speak, but I liked that people verbalized what was going on inside of me.

I focused on the absence of romantic love obsessively. It was my mantra. I decided to take 3 months off flirting. At first I got depressed. Then I realized a lot of beautiful things I had never even noticed.

For every death there is a rebirth.

If no one said, I love you today… I do.